Be The Best

If you can’t be the pine at the top of the hill
Be the scrub in the valley, but be

The best little scrub on the side of the hill
Be a bush if you can’t be a tree

If you can’t be a bush be a bit of the grass
Doing something for somebody’s sake

If you can’t be a muskie try being a bass
But be the liveliest bass in the lake

We can’t all be captains, some have to be crew
There is something for all of us here

There is big work and little for people to do
And the task we must do is near

So if you can’t be a highway then be a great trail
If you can’t be a sun be a star

It isn’t by size that you win or you fail
Be the best at whatever you are

Frustrations, Reasons and How to Overcome them

A friend asked me to answer a few questions on frustrations for her assignment. This is what I gave her. ^_^

I had to make it short (but it is still long) hahaha…

 

1. I couldn’t land on a traditional job I can manage after graduation. My parents were telling me to pursue graduate studies or find work but I just couldn’t find the motivation to do so. I was wasting my time at home.

 

Reason: I was not in good health mentally and physically. I was having hallucinations so I decided to quit my job. I felt hopeless and was crying most of the time.

 

How to overcome? I found a way to distract myself and be productive at the same time. I started working even just online. I worked as an English tutor and devoted my time for that. I studied a foreign language on weekends. I went back to the University to study another field which I like. I was working at night while studying during daytime.

 

2. People often ask what I was doing in life and express their regret upon learning about my current status. It was during the times when I had no work or was working from home.

 

Reason and Feeling: I felt being belittled and angry. My self-esteem was brought down.  I was asking myself who are they to tell me those things. I was thinking that I am probably earning more than they do from my homebased job. I don’t bother them. They will not help me in my life so why should they express their thoughts about mine. I am not asking them for help.

 

How to overcome? Before, I just felt so depressed because of that and cry. However, recently, I try to disagree with that person or at least defend myself by stating my reasons. I explain to them that my current field is still really related on my previous degree. It has a lot of applications and these days a lot of useful research or projects are being done on that.

 

I also keep this in mind:

 

Decisions….

There are times when people will judge you for the decisions you have made in your life. It’s really unavoidable. However, I just hope that before they look into the lives of others, they will try to look at themselves first in front of a mirror, understand the situation or even just know the reason of the others for their decisions. Almost everything has a reason.  Every choice you make, no matter how wrong it is in front of the other people, can still contribute to your life as a whole. It may seem to them that the path you have taken is a big mistake in your life. Perhaps they don’t see that your choices in life are valuable. But all of these are important since you gain experience. These experiences could possibly help you learn something and also make you a changed, or perhaps, a better person. Imagine if you haven’t taken that path you chose, then you will not have experienced what you have experienced. You will not be able to meet those people that you have encountered on your way. Although you might still be able to meet them no matter what path you take, the experience you will get will be different.

3. I was not performing well in school. I had low grades and failed some subjects. I was afraid to see people from my department.

Reason: I was not in good health condition. I couldn’t concentrate in my studies. There were also times I was busy with the activities of my organization.  I felt ashamed of myself and my status in school.

How to overcome: I finally was able to have courage to return to school and finish my final requirement after being on hiatus for almost 2 years. A kind person my mom met unexpectedly who happen to come from the same high school and previous degree program offered to help me. He gave me advice on what to do to go back to the university. It did not happen at once. Before I finally returned to school, I was admitted in a facility overseas wherein I was completely restricted. Tied on the bed with a belt on my waist and wrists. I had to stay there for almost two months. I experienced a lot of things there both good and bad. I was able to go home and become better. When I returned in the university, I felt more brave. I had courage to face my adviser and other people in the department thinking that I am stronger now.  They don’t know what kind of things I have already experienced before. Processing my return, working on a project, presenting it and facing the panel, talking to staff and strict professors is nothing compared to hearing voices, doing crazy things because of believing hallucinations, being picked up at the airport, brought to the police station, receiving injection and waking up in the hospital and staying in the four walls of a room with a catheter attached. Being restricted in a hospital where you can only talk to very limited people because they cannot speak your language and with patients shouting out all night and acting really out of control. Being hungry at times and trying to save some food from the hospital meal so I have something to eat at night. During that time, it really seemed to me that it was a mental hospital. I was most of the time very anxious because I don’t have anything to do. Of course there were also some good memories there. However, all of these experiences I had helped me overcome my fear of facing people and being scared of them. I always tell myself, I survived those difficult times. I am capable of doing more things, working hard and achieving goals.

In short, think of all the hardships you’ve been through already. You are a survivor. You have conquered them. You can do even better. You are capable of achieving more things. If ever you encounter hardships similar to them, believe that you are now stronger. Surviving it will help you gain experience, learn lessons and make you a better person.

Other ways to overcome frustration:

1. Ignore if you can do nothing about it. Don’t overthink.
2. If it is some problem you need to solve, ask for help or think of possible solutions. Do it step by step.
3. Focus your attention on other things. You can do some activities that make you feel happy or entertained. For example, drawing, watching shows, listening to music, dancing, exercising, singing or  writing your thoughts.
4. Read. You can read books or stories which can inspire you. You can also like pages or groups in Facebook which give positive quotes, saying or verses. Reading them at the start of your day can make you feel motivated and positive.
5. Smile. Make friends. Talk to your friends, family and doctor if you have. Think positive. Learn to accept some things in life.
6. Eat healthy food, take medications if your doctor says so, exercise or engage in physical activities and get enough sleep. I really suggest you to avoid staying up late at night.
7. Have faith and pray. Pray for peace of mind. ( I was praying for that all the time during my confinement aside from praying of being able to go home)

 

“God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.”

 

 

Android Studio Problem in Opening Old Application Example

App: Delta Bartalk from Udemy Course

https://github.com/flutter/flutter/issues/22470

buildscript {
    repositories {
        google()
        jcenter()
        mavenCentral()
    }
    dependencies {
        classpath 'com.android.tools.build:gradle:3.2.0'
    }
}
...

And gradle version 4.6 in

flutter_app\android\gradle\wrapper\gradle-wrapper.properties:

distributionUrl=https\://services.gradle.org/distributions/gradle-4.6-all.zip

 

https://stackoverflow.com/questions/50279792/could-not-find-com-android-tools-buildaapt23-2-0

buildscript {
  repositories {
      google() // here
      jcenter()
  }
  dependencies {
      classpath 'com.android.tools.build:gradle:3.2.0-alpha12'
  }
} 
allprojects {
  repositories {
      google() // and here
      jcenter()
}

 

WARNING: Configuration ‘compile’ is obsolete and has been replaced with ‘implementation’. #555

https://github.com/BranchMetrics/android-branch-deep-linking/issues/555

Step by Step solution

1- Go to the build.gradle(module app)

2- In the dependencies, you will see the code like this

compile fileTree(dir: 'libs', include: ['*.jar'])
testCompile  'junit:junit:4.12'
compile 'com.android.support:appcompat-v7:23.3.0'
compile 'com.android.support:support-v4:23.3.0'
compile 'com.android.support:design:23.3.0'

3- Now you have to ONLY replace the compile with implementation and testCompile with testImplementation. Like this

implementation fileTree(dir: 'libs', include: ['*.jar'])
testImplementation  'junit:junit:4.12'
implementation  'com.android.support:appcompat-v7:23.3.0'
implementation  'com.android.support:support-v4:23.3.0'
implementation  'com.android.support:design:23.3.0'

4- That’s all. Now click on Sync Now button.

Note– Don’t change the number or version given specified in the code.

Things that are happening

This week and again last night, I had pessimistic thoughts or like cursing. It was because of a disagreement regarding attending a personal event. I haven’t attended any wedding of my college friends before. I couldn’t understand why I am not allowed and why do we have to ask the question if your friend have helped you before. I have noticed it already before years ago that whenever I have negative thoughts and I tried to take it back. It still happens but not to me of my family. It happens to someone I know or my family knows.

I feel sorry for them. I should avoid my negatives thoughts that I have. I guess I should pray that it will not happen to my loved ones nor to people I know or I care for.

Today’s Angel Numbers

111

333

444

555

666

777

222

Some bad things happened today.

I feel sorry.  I was cursing yesterday like wishing for an earthquake because of bad temper.

I will try my best to avoid negative thoughts.